What is Family to You?

Today Kala and I couldn't agree on a topic for the audio >_> so I (Shanice) have decided to write one instead. Do people even know the true definition of family anymore? Because many of us abuse the words 'hate' and 'love' we are confused about a certain circle of people that many of us hold near and dear to our hearts. Now someone does not have to be a blood relative in order to be part of your family. The word, family, has many definitions. What is your definition of a family? My definition is basically two or more people care intimately (without sex) about each other and would sacrifice almost anything for that person. There are a few people out there, who are not blood relatives, that I consider family.

Anyways, I have a family that at times can seem like total strangers you just want to smack. I mean, who doesn't? The one thing I can say, though, is that my family do NOT play. They have my back when I'm stuck in situations and when it comes to fighting, we come like wolves. As for my friends that I consider family...they SUCK!! LMAO! I love them to death. This goes for all my family, both blood and not, I will do ALMOST anything for you. Don't expect me to go down with you when you did something you should not have been doing in the first place. Some non-blood people I consider family are; Eric, Stephanie, Melanie, Chelsea, Shaquana, Arielle, Jared, and Sherwyn. (I hope ya'll ok with this ^.^)

Back to my point though, some people think family is only within the blood. Sometimes, those same blood people can be the biggest of enemies, or strangers, to you. There are many people I know that their own family treats them like shit and have friends that care more about them than that family of theirs. Why is this? Maybe because a lot of people take family for granted. "Oh s/he will let me slide with this." Then it turns into a frequent thing. I guess what I'm trying to say is that many people thing that family is supposed to do everything for them or give them something every time they ask for it. No relationship works like that at all, and never will if people keep pushing limits.

So this concludes my thoughts for the day. If you have anything to add, feel free to comment or email me, because there may have been things I forgot to add, so on and so forth. Since I have three AP exams in only 2 weeks (can someone say mega stress!?) I have mega studying to do. So as I'm off to the world of college level books, check out the other KSZD blogs and some from my girlies Chels and Quana.*

~~Keep Love Real~~

*Quana:
http://beautifullyoutspoken.wordpress.com/

*Chels:
http://cladylegacy.blogspot.com/

MVHS on Monday, April 12...an twist in things...

As many of you may already know, recently (Monday, April 12, 2010) the wall to my school auditorium fell out and destroyed the ceilings in some of the classrooms beneath it. School has been out since then and I have been home left to think about my future. When I first heard about it, I was at work, which is inside the school building, and one of the night janitors came in the office and told one of my supervisors that there was an 'explosion' in the school. Many of us was thinking that a pipe burst and the school was flooded. Man we were fooled like hell. Then a security guard, who didn't have his facts straight, said that the roof of the auditorium caved in. My EXACT thought was; "How cool would it be to see that huge hole in the ceiling?" Yes, I have weird interests in broken buildings. Now it's stuck in both my head and my friends' head. All we could think about was either work, our stuff in our lockers and so on.

Now I got home and was wondering how bad this damage was. So finally in the middle of the night my mom wakes me up and tells me to come watch the news. Channel 12 was showing the clip again. From that moment I nearly cried because right then and there I knew that I almost died Monday. My AP Bio class, along with many others, walked right under that auditorium for a fire drill a few hours before the wall collapsed. I know you're probably thinking that I'm over reacting but that day I knew something wasn't right and my friends thought I was just having those monthly mood swings. My spirit was OFF that entire day. Then yesterday, as my friend was driving on the highway next to the school, I saw the wall and it seemed like a damn dream! These things seem so surreal once it happens to you.

Now three days later and I'm waiting to go to this meeting in two hours. It's to determine whether we split up the high school into two other high schools in Mount Vernon or make up go back there to that unsafe building. If we do get split up they better do it by grades or I'm going to be depressed. Being separated from my friends now would crush my spirit. Now matter how long I've known them, many of us have a bond that is special, especially to me. Now we're graduating from each other, in a weird kind of way. All we can do is pray that they work something out that'll make EVERYONE happy. :'( Us seniors may suffer the most from this thing...smh. What do you have to say about this?

Random thinking

Hey everyone, and for all you who need to know this is Kala =] It is extremely late/early and I was up just doing some thinking. Being a sophomore in high school isn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it isn't all sunshine and rainbows. E.g I have way too many problems, you guys may think 'Oh she sets herself up for these things' but truth be told, I don't. I'm not the type to put myself out there; believe it or not I'm a VERY shy person. Also, I'm not one to start drama or be in it for no reason at all. It comes unexpectedly and most of the times it's our "friends" who cause it or they don't bother to help you, you know. They'd rather watch it all. I've had my share of FF [fake friends] throughout all my life; school, home, my social life.. everywhere you go you're going to be disappointed by someone you think/thought you could trust. Unfortunately, for me I had to find out the hard way who I could and couldn't trust; it almost turned physical [which was a stupid part on my behalf] What I'm trying to say is there's not really FULL happiness anywhere. However, that shouldn't stop you from actually being happy. It's not only the whole 'I'm a sophomore ' thing, its also ME. It's something about the way I am that makes people dislike [or hate] me for no reason what so ever. I can name about 4 to 5 girls who have problems with me... not even problems they just want to say how much they don't like me. Can someone tell me why do girls dislike other girls without truly knowing them first? Not only girls but boys too. Is it the jealousy? Is it the fact that they're more fortunate? Or is it the fact that they want attention from that person in any way, shape, or form? It does bother me when people straight up dislike me but then at the same time it doesn't really bother me much, I mean like they're not ACTUALLY saying things to me or hitting me so I'm just like what ever... Now I got to make sure my little brother is sleeping for school tomorrow :-\ Lol he makes me feel better about everything. ♥ ♥ So leave your comments because I want to know what you guys want to say about this and if you have any relations to what I wrote. Thankss :] KeepLoveReal. Nighty night. :-P

Life...

Well today for me was different and kind of dead because barely anyone was in school today. Why? I have no idea. Anyhow, today a teacher of mind was talking about his autistic daughter. To be honest, I never knew what autism was and I felt like I'd look like an idiot if I ask him what it was because the rest of the class knew. =\ As he went on to describe it, I understood autism little by little. It was something that made me feel a bit...out of it (I guess)...and that was only the half of it. He described her mental development and how it was behind compared to her twin sister (who was normal rate). Then he got into the story of about how she act when she can't tell her parents something and it made me cry. I don't understand why I was crying but I did. Do you know anyone who is autistic? Please help me understand autism a bit better if you do?
*Sign out...Shanice*

A class assignment...

I told ya'll that we we're gonna have some textual things in betwixt (love that word!) audios. And this is (Shanice's) class assignment for AP English and it's my OPINION on was freedom us Americans possess that I find muy importante. I chose freedom of CHOICE. This is why...

"In society today, people are just beginning to care for the earth. What happened a few years ago when people didn't care as much to end global warming? Many people are at ease when they go outside on a warm spring day and just read a good book or listen to music under a beautiful tree. The smell alone calms some people. Now imagine if people would do this for a few hours instead of watching TV, or sitting in front of the computer all day. It would lessen pollution a little bit but it can also relieve the stress in your physical, mental and emotional health. With people taking advantage of this freedom, some may become calmer and less agitated. Also it gives them a chance to handle situations with a peace of mind. But then again...it is YOUR choice."

Now what you think about that? People have that freedom to choose to go where they please but some don't even care to take a deep breath come in tune with nature. We choose to be clogged up in a room with some electronic device doing nothing importante. (I'm not saying anything about people who have their ENTIRE life on some piece of electronic >_>) It's just a shame we don't take advantage of it before global warming eats everything up and leave us with the crumbs. Then later we want to scramble eggs out of the shells (MY METAPHOR ^.^) Anyways just some food for thought :) Now...I'm OFF! Gonna listen to my IDOL Jill SCOOOOOOTTTTTTTT <3, finish writing my AP English essay and take my AP Economics quiz. *sigh* I've prayed for AP classes and now I want to put it to sleep lol. Later home slices and remember...kuweka upendo wa kweli (Swahili for Keep Love Real)

Shanice's Thoughts...

Hey everyone! It's minutes to 9pm and I should be getting ready for bed, but instead I'm up stressing (in my mind) about school, and my grades in school. I feel so insecure about my 2.8 GPA. Ever since 8th grade, my friends have been getting higher GPA's than me. Don't take this as a form of jealousy. I love my friends and I'm sincerely happy for them. I just want to know...what the hell happened to me? I try so hard with school but feel like it's never enough, and feeling that, I'm majorly insecure about my college career. I just don't want something crazy to happen where I'm unable to complete college. My FAFSA is so-called incomplete and I CAN'T FIND THE LETTER!! >:O Maybe that's why I feel the way I do...I'm too careless and that's the farthest thing I want to be right now in my life. Plus I keep forgetting my scholarship deadlines :( I think I need some help from God because no one on earth can help me with anything right now. *sigh* Anyways, this was just a bit of release off my mind, but why do I feel like breaking down and crying right now? I'm just going to read my bible and go to sleep soon because the Lord knows I need to go to bed or I WILL NOT go to school tomorrow morning. Any excuse to keep myself from going to school and breaking down...mentally. Am I the only one the feels/have felt this way?

Episode 6: Hypocrites

Episode 5: Teen Pregnancy (Part II)

Episode 5: Teen Pregnancy (Part I)

Episode 4: Obliviousness

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